My parents and I got into a huge argument over heavy body modification. They claimed they are “concerned for” people with very heavy body modifications because something must be going on in their lives for them to want to do that to their bodies.
I know my parents well, and deep down, I understand that they truly believe their judgments come from a place of care. But it’s hard to have a conversation with them where I can explain how their judgments are misguided (and hurtful) because it feels too personal. I’m already visibly tattooed and plan to be heavily tattooed in the future. Every tattoo I get feels like I’m laying claim to my body, like I am further claiming it as my own. So when my parents bring up body modification in anything other than a positive light, it hurts because there is a part of me that feels insecure about claiming myself. I have worked so hard to be more secure in myself and my choices and getting tattooed is such a central part in that.
I’ve also come to realize that there is only so much I can say to change people’s minds. My parents and I may not ever get to the point where we can have the kind of conversation I want about body modification. They may not ever understand how personal it is for me, and this may be one of those things that I just need to acknowledge and let go because it’s too exhausting and anxiety inducing to argue.